Kireston Luptak

Damaged. Very damaged. I didn’t have the best upbringing, so I was a hurt little girl who eventually turned into a promiscuous young woman. I was just damaged, and I took all of the hurt out in that way. If you were to ask people who know me, they’ll tell you stories about how when I first got here, how crazy and fun I was. And then I met someone who definitely made me realize that you can be loved correctly.
Now I’m calm and I’m peaceful I think for the first time. I’m 26, and I’m so comfortable with myself and my life and everything. This year was my biggest year of growth. I’m comfortable … happy, which is something I’ve never been before. I put more work on myself this year than any time of my life. I went to therapy and really got to the roots of issues that I’ve had in my life. And I’m just truly happy now.
I don’t care to sugarcoat things. I’m very upfront about my feelings. Very emotional. But I’m also a very gentle person. Most people think I want to hit everything and that I’m mean and mad all the time. Sometimes I do want to hit shit, don’t get me wrong. But I’m very gentle. I know I have resting bitch face. I look very unapproachable.
Can you imagine what it feels like to constantly be discouraged and pushed aside in male dominated society, where men always have the upper hand? To this day there are comments like ‘the first female this or that’ … which is crazy! The drive to be seen and heard as a woman is such a powerful force. And with all that power we still hold so much gentleness and love. We are like phoenixes, we rise from ashes, again and again. Stronger and more beautiful. You hear that saying about fixing another women’s crowns … at the end of the day we aren’t really each other’s competition. We are all fighting for more power for us. For women. It’s vibrational and phenomenal … ya gotta be a woman to feel it.

She.